People (who were) in my life constantly told me that I never opened up to them quick/quick enough, or with all effort I'd push them away. Thing is, I don't dare to. I'm afraid. People have insecurities, I have lots of them. I always thought that if i held onto my insecurities and opened up later, and the person continue waiting patiently, for me to open up, he/she is worthy of my secrets.

People leave, don't they? And you won't wanna be stupid and tell anybody anything and everything, and when they leave, BAM. You're screwed. I'm not wise enough, I'm always getting betrayals in my life. But I'm learning to be wiser. And wiser isn't about telling people how you feel. It's about you knowing how you feel and being able to keep it within yourself. I'm learning. I'm not perfecting it yet but I'm trying.

To-do-list:
Too much to list.

Time to sleep. Goodnight.