Hi. Woke up oh-so-late at 12pm. Was already lunch time when I opened my eyes. Been long since I had such long hours of sleep. Currently in NUS's Starbucks studying Marketing. Oh, did I mentioned how much I thank God that Marketing is an open-book test? Well I really thank God, for it really is too content heavy.

Okay, gonna go back to studying. Later!

POM is over and screwed. It's officially over between me and management, for now.

Anyway, I met Harry and Syahiran in the afternoon. The boys have definitely grown quite a bit. Especially Harry. He used to be my height but now he's a head taller than me, and got a body of a killer. I took a bus with syahiran (he alighted at amk) and I alighted at clementi.

Met Japh at NUS and I met MANY new friends today. The first was Angus. Funny guy whom I had dinner with. Then I met many others and this Finland guy that Japh told me about - all girls were swooning over him. Gotta admit he has got the looks and the physique.

Went for floor ball and so did Mr Swooned-over. But I didn't really talk to him because he always had a pool of girls surrounding him. But he was pretty nice, he came and talked to me (after 3 hours of floor balling) and I, was flattered. And I grew to know the reason why girls swooned over him.

I can't remember what our conversation was like, but I remember him telling me "Oh, you're 18? Only 18? Dang, I shall call you 18 then. This shall be my nickname for you"

I only remember a prominent statement of his:
"How 'bout you come over every week, so we can... kind of hang out or something."

And he was called on ground to play floor ball so I did not give him a definite reply. But aw what a nice guy. Anyway I'm back in the hostel room, waiting for Dan to come up to savour the cupcake with me. Whoop whoop!

I realised that i haven't been spending time with my friends. Recently, I got too tight up with my studies and spending time with my family. Well I'm glad friends still make the effort to ask me out and stuff. I'm glad to have friends being concerned about me, still. I love you.

Anyway, today I wasted my afternoon, I slept till 6pm and woke up to dinner. Skyped conference with Chinna, Gregory and Harry. Harry grown so much. I remember 3 years ago, he was still my height, getting chocs for me during our study dates and playing the piano for me through the webcam every night. Oh how time flies.

Been trying to motivate the unmotivated but apparently I have motivational issues as well. Le sigh. I need a breather. Probably a good one after the exams. Right now, I shall mug. Crashing NUS tomorrow, huraaay!

I'm extremely tired of studying. But i guess studying DO pay off. FnB was well, woke up at 5am today, took a bus to Phyllis's. She needed help with FnB and I was more-or-less done studying so I thought it'd be good for me to help a friend in need.

Tired tired, very tired. But, 3 more days to freedom. I will make it. Shall take a power nap before continue on my way to POM xx

I've only watched 2 MUSICAL BROADWAYS - Sound Of Music and Wicked. Both were EXTREMELY GOOD. Well I haven't exactly watched a sucky one so I wouldn't know what's a bad musical (yet)!

And, I wore a fitting dress today. Apparently it was a dress which daddy gave mommy (and mommy passed it to me). Gotta admit that daddy has got quite good taste when it comes to female clothes. Went to MBS straight after church ended and I went back to a place where Japhy and I used to work at, for dinner. The chefs were nice, as usual.

The cute chef who used to sneakily cook for me stuff to eat asked if both of us had a boyfriend, and I told him the honest answer that we both were single. He immediately shouted across the entire kitchen asking which young chef wanted us. Totally cracked me up but I was like "Heeey no....... Don't do that!"

Anyway, I was really enchanted by the lead actor in Wicked and was lucky enough to get a photo with him after the musical! Sadly, Japhy had shaky hands but ahwells, I still had a photo and a hug from him! Okay, back to serious business. FNB, HERE I COME!

Just a short post before I sleep. It's 1.30am and I'm almost done studying FnB. Very VERY selective studying, I must say. But I'm just waiting for 01/03/12 to come. Time please pass quickly. I'll do something about the wasted time, in another life.

Had a conversation with my ex boyfriend's best friend. Quite a nice guy, I must say. Told him about the modules I'm learning and he was so amazed. He told me that he feels my misery. Oh what joy it is to not have any exams, I'm envious.

Dear Freedom,
Can you feel me taking a step closer to you? I'm currently not feeling stressed (bad) but feeling that everything's gonna be okay (good/bad?) Well, 6 more days. Please wait for me.
Xoxo, Can't Wait To Be Free

Daddy's out to Indo for a business trip. Stupid business conference. I want daddy back. Guess he's only gonna be back few days later. Pfftttt. Not one bit motivated to study. I can't wait for the holidays to come, really.

I'm really overjoyed at Angeline sweetie coming to SG in April (more or less confirmed least something crops up). I knew her since I was in Secondary 1. Often tried to meet up when I crash Malaysia but distance has always been such a bitch.

Sigh, I guess I really gotta get my head in the game if I want to do well. I have been slacking off this semester. I need to study smart.

P/S How do you like the picture I drew?

Well, it's inevitable for me not to come back on my computer because I just had to realise that my tutorial notes for Food and Beverage are not consistently printed out. Therefore, I am back on my computer to revise them online. Sigh, the distractions.......

I'm currently doing some OSIM foot reflexology on a message chair and it hurts so bad. Will I magically turn into a cheetah after that? And I had alphabet soup for lunch. Been having diarrhea since last night when I ingest McSpicy. Need something light. Okay heading back to mugging!

I will only be back after End Sems. Meanwhile, I will attempt to mug my arse off and keep my fingers crossed for easy papers. Well, the papers needn't be easy, just magically appear what I've studied, okay? Pretty please with a cherry on the top?

Mid Semestral Results:
POM - D
Macro - D
Mkg - C+
FnB - C+
Com Skills - C+

So much for not studying and allowing external factors to affect my mood. Nonetheless, I'm thankful and glad that I passed everything.

Current Coursework Grades:
Music - A
French - B+
Mkg - C+
POM - B
Macro - B

I am honestly extremely lucky to get such coursework grades. Just look at my mid sems.... Horrendous. In preparation, I shall destroy all sorts of distractions coming my way. Sadly, I've not gotten back all of my coursework grades (namely Com Skills and FnB), really anticipating results, for reasons.

Okay, good bye (for now, that is)

Not elaborating any further than I Miss You.

Word.

Rainbows, I'm paying a visit to the cinemas this friday! Whoopie. Sadly "The Vow" is not out yet. Again, sadly, I would not be crashing NUS this weekend. Have got too much stuff to do.... Life, what's new.

So.......... how d'ya like my waves?

So today's the day everyone labelled as "Valentine's Day".... No biggie actually. Cool for a date with my books. Interview went great. Finally got to catch up with Shermeen and Chloe, I miss those girls, really. Felt a little emotional over personal reasons. The boys (WP and SK) were extremely comforting and sweet.

Received LOTS of virtual flowers from Gab, SK and WP. Funny boys. I love you all.

Been told these days that I've not been as open as I used to be by people around me. Really? Um, that's because the many instances in life that kept me thinking about what people would do to you if you open up to them. Will they really and truly accept you for who you are?

Is it a worthy risk to take? Been through threats, betrayals, and judgements. And through these, I've learnt a lot. No, I would not take the risk. Not only you feel lousy if the person you trust does that to you. You take a risk on that friendship as well. Imagine a good friend whom you trust upon your life turned this trust against you? Will you ever be able to talk to her in the same way again?

Ponder about it, some risks in life are better not to take.

Freedom awaits me in 16 days. It's make it or break it.

Yet another day. Mugged my way through today as well. Right now, I'm trying as much as possible to minimise my usage of the social network because I (always have) realised that it's a major barrier and distraction to every positive atom I have towards studying.

Oh, just got reminded that mommy offered to pay for the entire Penang trip that I've been planning to go on with Carmen! Am extremely excited because it's just gonna be Carms and I! Life isn't gonna be that bad after all. Am hoping to crash NUS this coming weekend, again. Oh productivity, here I come!

Been busy studying. Crashed NUS from Saturday - Sunday. Was a GREAT experience. Extremely productive, with superb environment and lovely people. Everyone was mugging when it was past midnight... What's with the education in Singapore?

Dan was kind enough to get his car to drop me off nearby. Two days, well spent. Will do it again, anytime.

Whilst people in midst their wonderland, I'm down with harsh reality. A test at 9am. I'm up to study. Time check it's 6am. Woke up early to a long goodnight text, what's better than that in an early morning?

Anyway, I had a gr8 time with Athena bby yesterday at PP's Sogurt. I had 2 servings!!! Had to go home to work it off in the night. We also went for a short Cotton On spree! I love that girl of mine, can't wait for a sleepover!

Looks like March - April is gonna be a month full of fun-filled activities. Whoop, and for now. Back to mugging!

So i heard something today. Like every other day, I hear something new everyday. Would be good to watch the drama that's happening soon. Anyway, had music presentation today, quite glad that it's all over and done. Left with FnB submission and ComSkills test on Saturday.

Went home with my first ever eye candy from TP. Remembering the time he came over to my place while i played the guitar doubtfully and sing so ever softly. Doubt he could hear shit. Need to meet the boys (SK, WP, MC and BEN) soon. Those dudes are seriously people who keeps my twitter alive.

Really funny how things surfaces up so easily. I'm glad I knew it all though. After all people do hide things. It is, in fact, the matter of whether it is well covered with lies. You may detest liars, but everyone had lied before. Do not forget, you were once a liar too. A big one.

Time: 12.54am
Venue: Home, On My Bed
Task: None
Checked: Music Presentation, FnB Project


WOOOOOOOO I'm finally done whoopwhoopwhooooop! Goodnight now I'ma sink into the unknown galaxy, deep into my wonderland. Have a great night to you who read this! 

Time: 4:22pm
Venue: Home
Task: FnB Project
Checked: None

And so the sun is barely arisen while I'm already up studying french. Yesterday was probably the most productive day I had in this entire semester. This semester's been too stressful. Loads of shit happened as well, but I'm learning to live with it. What's life without shit happening?

French isn't as easy as I thought it would be. But I guess I have to get the determination to keep me going. Seemed very much like a long time since I fel really happy. What's wrong?

Je Suis Fatiguée. I just really need some good sleep right now.

Came in contact with a boy whom I haven't been talking to for 4 years. After a failed relationship, we went separate ways awkwardly, not speaking for 4 years. Yesterday, we finally talked, again. He was lost in love, he felt sad, depressed and very vulnerable. He told me "I really didn't expect you to take the effort to comfort me when I'm down. Thanks Julia."

Well he hurt me that way once, but I guess I've been through that without anyone and as much as possible, I'd like to be there for people whom feel lousy. Isn't a good feeling, eh? I'm glad, though. That we're back on talking terms. After 4 years.....

"I've been longing to tell you how I truly feel for you. But I never found the courage to say the words that would ease up my mind. It's never been easy for me all this time. You were my closest friend, but i never really had the chance to open up to you. 

I watched you get hurt but all I am is a friend who comforts. Little did you know that I was in pain too. But whenever we are together, I just cover it up with the joy of being with you. You are all that matter to me, but he's all that matters to you. I was really scared to tell you how much I care for you. I was afraid you will never talk to me again. 

You treated me as a very close friend but in turn, I see you even more than that. I never really expected us to be this close but you showed me so much more... It is but for human to long for more and I'm sorry for being one. I know I am really in love with you and the fact will never, ever, ever fade away. 

You are one-in-a-billion and I don't think I would run up to someone like you ever. I never want to see you sad again. Just remember that I will always be here for you and you will always be my prettiest friend."

I guess this sums up my day.

Had a great time. Although i brought my computer to do my projects there, I truly had a good catch up with the people there. Finally touched on my music presentation whoopwhoop! Feels like I'm back on track. I'm glad to be born into such a loving family with lovely parents and annoying lovely siblings.

Glad to have friends who care. Been trying to detach myself from my phone. But my friends have been so sweet to show care and concern, whatsapping/texting/calling to ask if I'm alright etc. I feel extremely doted on.

Time to h-i-t_t-h-e_s-a-c-k! Goodnighty!

Had a htht session with Japhy last night till 4am. Woke up late. Daddy's friends came while i was still asleep (talk about embarrassment). Have tons to do, urgh. Feel the stress kicking in. Time for me to do my projects....... I hate projects because they are so time consuming.

Slept for only an hour last night while I mugged for my music test this morning, at 9am. Was so cranky throughout the day, wanna thank my family for putting up with my lack-of-sleep attitude. Finally, music test is over. This coming week is gonna be one helluva hectic week.

• Monday - Macroecons project submission & presentation
• Wednesday - French speaking test
• Thursday - Music presentation
• Friday - FnB project submission
• Saturday - ComSkills summative test

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Sometimes, I get myself wondering, what would it be like if I could do the things I want to do in life? Not saying that I can't do what I want, but what if I could relived my life, would things be the same again?

Things don't always go my way, shit happens. When bad things happen, I've always have thoughts like: I could've been better, could've done more, could've been nicer, I could've, could've..... Thing is, I have to realise that Could Have, Would Have, Should Have should not appear.

It's not easy being nice, especially for those who have hurt you time and again, waiting for a time to screw your life over. But i'm still learning to appreciate little things people do instead of judging them for what they Should Have done.


Everyone is special to somebody. I believe I have always been and always will be special in the eyes of Daddy and Mommy. But just so you know, each and every one of you, are beautiful. 
Okay it's time for some rest before waking up once again to mug for my music test which is at 9am. Time Check: 2.22am 

Spent too much wasted time yesterday. What I remembered from the 2nd of Feb was Davin telling me "Hi Julia, you smell good." Always love it when people tells me I smell good. Yesterday was good, Today was better.

Skipped POM lecture in the morning (GOTTA START STUDYING FOR REAL), and went to school in the afternoon. Had ComSkills. I realised just today that ComSkills is not that detestable afterall. I'm starting to love the module, for reasons I can't comprehend. Had fun with my girlies.

Hi there! I've been procrastinating my days away. Okay well I've actually done work. But I don't think it's enough. Never would I think the work I do is enough. I may be satisfied with what I do, but I do not think  that it is enough. Seeing the colourful "procrastination" makes me giddy.

Anyway, good day today (ok except for the fact that I slept in Macroecon's lecture). Today was spent well, lectures and tutorials. POM is now down, I'm left with French, Music, FnB and Macro. Had a lunch date with Carmen in Bistro. Been long since I spent time with solely Carms. Had quite a good chat.

WHAT MADE MY DAY WERE MY ASOS ITEMS ARRIVING RIGHT BEFORE MY EYES WHEN I STEPPED HOME. The cute delivery man pressed the door bell. "Miss..... Julia?" he said. I whooped in joy as I grabbed the parcel and squealed a little "thankiee" at him. Yay!!!! Life's good.

Okay back to projects.

Today, I had school per usual. Had a little wrap up to the POM report by practising the presentation two times. I felt really tired today. But still, I had this urge to meet Julia. Probably because we haven't seen each other in a long time, I really wanted to see her. To talk to her, to laugh together, like the good old times.

We met, at NEX. Got Sogurt and accompanied her to SAJC for the appeal. Saw mommy's friend's son, Keefe. Been long since I saw him. Juls and I had a great chat, REALLY great chat. Could do with more chats like today.

Got home, received a call from Cullen. What a sweet boy, really. He noticed that i haven't been in the best mood lately so he called to check if I was okay. Appreciate the concern. Kevin got me a vacation job with good pay. I'm glad to have such great friends.