Fetching my baby Angeline tomorrow and it's already 2am uh-oh I better sleep else I can't wait up. Night bubbles!

3 weeks of holidays left.

• week of 1 Apr - meeting Angeline for the first time after 5 years, meeting my pony (maybe)
• week of 8 Apr - Freshmen Orientation (pretty much the entire week)
• week of 15 Apr - Week 0 (contemplating if one should go)

You know, how people have insecurities? Everyone has them. Don't ever think that you're the only exception in this society. Even the ones who appear most confident have their little insecurities as well. And even if you're a person full of insecurities, it doesn't give you the liberty to put others down to push yourself up.

What I despise most is that, you have your insecurities and you feel insecure about your insecurities. So what you do is that you instill insecurities into your friends and allow them to feel the same way you do, otherwise worse. Do you have any sense of humanity?

Since you always want the first-hand news, you often spend your time finding means to make yourself seem like a news publisher. Just a little advice, you can actually channel the ample time you used on intensive researches on people to study. P/S I believe that would be much more beneficial, and not to mention, much more useful in life.

You're good at getting people but you know what you're bad at? Keeping them. You will definitely read this and I just want you to know that there were times I could have embarrassed you but I did not. I respected you as a human being. And one last thing, I've never met such a cunning person in my life.

May I relive my life?

Upon listening to "We Are Young" from Glee, I fell in love with this song and started researching on it. I found this REALLY interesting audio made-up video to help provide in sights to this song. Apparently this video is an analogy of sex.

This pretty lady peeling the apple refers to the removal of clothes. Her expression supports how she's feeling during the point of time and the blood at the end refers to her losing her virginity. No sexual pun intended here but I mean, it's a genius way to prefigure a song, to explain it in a way that the composer/singer couldn't.

Nonetheless, I prefer the Glee version. Okay goodnight!

Says it all.

Woke up to a rain. Dear Mother Earth, why are you crying?

As much as I like the rain, I've always believed that it means that something bad is happening/going to happen. Ah, I should stop these irrelevant thoughts. Catching lunch with my favourite one. Later.

The kind of feeling I have never felt in years.

Anyway, being over here have been really great. Yesterday, we had floorball. Teamed with the guys and I guess it was pretty tiring but good fun. Nothing much happened yesterday except sissy went over to her friend's room to overnight.

A friend came over and we talked about life. Although it was past midnight it felt like it was really early. During our conversation, he sneakily face-jacked me. There is a reason why I've always labelled him as "badass".

Today, I met up with my dear girl Joyce. Although we dedicated most of our time to finding our way through shops and whatnot, we still had an undeniably great time. After I got back, I felt so drained and took a long nap!

Went down to roller skate and there again, my dear friend was struggling with his skates (what a cute sight, really) I've learnt to skate parallel and crossed. Feeling accomplished. After that I went for a jamming session with Buz, Marc, Amanda, Kegan, Jonathan and two other guys whose name is not known to me.

J: Noob skater. ANYWAY, JUST SO YOU KNOW I'M LEAVING TOMORROW ALREADY.
☺: goodbye julia, i will miss you

He is, honestly, a very sarcastic and mean asshole. For him to say that made me feel different. And maybe it's just me. I very much wanted to reply "I'll miss you very much" but had no courage to, so I guess this conversation will be left hanging.

Oh well it's 2.30am and I guess it is time for bed. Goodnight.

In A Nutshell for the past few days....

19.03.2012
I met Sylvester! Finally! Sylvester is actually this really good friend of mine, who went to America to further his studies after secondary school. He came back around Nov-Dec but we didn't meet because I had projects and whatnot. And finally, when vacation arrived, I figured that I just had to make time for this dude. So we met up and sat in Esplanade Park while he taught me the ukelele. Damn, he's good.

This really cute caucasian tourist actually asked us to pose for a photo. So we did, and we caught up quite a bit. He still has his American accent after about 5 months of being here. I miss Sylvester so so much, it's so good to have him back.

20.03.2012
That's today! Well, I went for a job interview so I put on a little make up. I don't know if i looked a lot more different or not but I felt different. This male model came and give me his number (weirdly). Played floorball, did some workouts with Pearl. All good fun. So many things but yet i'm so lazy to blog about it haha so it'll just end here going off to a secret place with a secret somebody OK BYE!

Here I am, trying to psycho myself that I'm a person who is full of cleanliness whilst facing a messy room. So I've come to a conclusion: SOMETHING NEEDS TO BE DONE. I need to get my ass up to start tidying my room because it seem so clean on the surface yet bits and pieces of everything are everywhere.

No wonder I've always had troubles searching for things.... Ok I CAN DO IT!!!!! Bye

Refresh 2 was really tiring but good fun. Had a great time with Mithio. So much laughters. I'm just really looking forward to sunday and monday, for reasons. Goodnight Earthlings!

It's like I'm on the stairway to Heaven. The last thing I need is nothing else. I love my life. I love this vacation. I'm working on going to UK alone. For a road trip. Probably pop in Sophie's and catch up a little. But that's definitely not happening this year.

Since I'm not going to UK or anywhere far this year, I'm working on a trip to Malaysia myself. Maybe this holidays, maybe the end of the year. But I'm definitely excited for a little getaway. As much as I love my current life, there's always a need to pursue something different. Okay goodnight!

Recently, when my long vacation started, I got to know so many new people of the opposite gender. It's like a different life I'm living. Well, I guess I'm still too youthful to date anyone seriously. I'm come to a realisation that I'm not ready for anything too serious.

Being young once, is really tough yet can be so fun at times. 

So usual for teens to fall in and out of love, meet people who walked in and out of their lives and failed and done well for examinations. Well, personally I'm seeking for something more. Something more thrilling and probably astounding, something different.

Honestly, having lived 17+ years on earth, I haven't met someone who've made me fall head over heels for him, yet. I guess at least once in my life, someone would make me feel that he's worth sacrificing and dying for. But till then, I am so contented with my life right now. Just stay this way as long as possible xxx Goodnight!

On Facebook
A: "typing from my phone zzz"
J: "come online:)"
A: "No. going online is a big distraction. Just you is enough"
J: "lol is that a hint for my number?;)"
A: "you're already distracting me enough i don't need the rest of the internet. And.... ;)"
J: "whats the wink for. you're supposed to ask. nicely"
A: "you're making me ask for your number? how shameless"
J: "ok then you shall stick with facebook messaging me through your phone 3:)"
A: "bet you're enjoying this"
J: "okay cheekiness aside, i'm going to NUS next tuesday. you can see me and i feel excited for you!"
A: "then you can continue this conversation by texting me at XXXX XXXX cause facebook is really annoying"

On Phone
J: "hello"
A: "hey, lol you really succumbed to it. :D"
J: "bet you are enjoying this"

And the conversation continues. This is what happens if you're conversing with an NUS Business Student. Manipulatively cute.

IY camp was a great platform and opportunity for me to communicate with more people from IY and AJ from Adam and TK. Although the group was rather small, I have to say that it was a really fruitful and fulfilling camp.

My favourite part of the camp were the late nights. Conversing and playing cards, talking about each others' lives and just catching up on what we've missed these years. The theme was "Growing Up" and I guess all of us adapted to that theme pretty well.

Those whom I spent 4 days 3 night with, were people whom I grew up with. Imagine, it was like another chapter was added to the never-ending story. I'm so glad I have all of you.

I really do not know what is up with me this time. I've always admired my friends who've got good boyfriends and I guess it have and always will be a girls' thing for them to yearn for a nice, dedicated guy to stay by them at every part of their lives. But whenever a nice guy is interested in me, I tend to push him away.

Not literally push but I'll distant myself away from him, and just pretend that nothing happened and continue being friends with that person. It is very unfair on his part but it has dawned on me that I have been very selfish.

Treating him as such a good friend, telling him about other people whom have walked in and out of my life that I have neglected that fact that there was a really good guy in front of me, always there for me, waiting to be the one I'd be talking about one day, and just when reality struck me that he's right there, I'm dumbfounded.

Okay, so much more to say but they being rather private so I guess I'll just stop right here. It's 2.06am, the night is young. Goodnight pumpkins!

Trip to Sentosa with my class8s pretty much summed up my day. Woke up at 7am, went back home from NUS (it was freaking far you have totally no idea) and went back to Harbourfront to meet my class8s.

Backflipping, Horse racing, Climbing up trees, Frisbees, Volleyball, Strumming the guitar and singing along, etc, it all went pretty well, better than expected. Crashed Aloha Loyang for Darryl's chalet later in the night and met a few nice people there. Okay I'm really tired so I'm just going to hit the sack.

P/S last night at old airport's went well. After we came back, I went to the music studio to watch Marcus, Bazil and some other guys jam. Got to know one of the guys better, a really cheeky guy. I love hanging out with that bunch.

Yesterday, I had night plans. But I fell asleep at 8pm, couldn't get myself up. Woke up this morning about 10am. I had about 14hours of sleep.  Okay, so last night. Angus convinced me into going for a talk with him. So I went with Angus and we were struggling to keep ourselves awake.

After that, we went into the canteen, and met Aaron, Jon and Sheryl, in which Marcus joined afterwards. Jon finally introduced me to Aaron, this guy whom I've been bumping into in NUS. Probably 9 times in 3 days. Saw Gabriel (it was super coincidental because Gab and i have been trying to meet each other but our schedule kept clashing) and I talked to him for a bit.

Today, still unsure of my plans (yet) but tonight, we're heading out for supper at lau pa sat! A big group of them, with Marcus, Jon, Aaron, Angus, Danver, etcetc. Am quite excited honestly. Heading out for lunch right now.

Good morning! Slept early last night, was supposed to work but I sorta overslept so I guess I'm stucked on bed, in NUS. I heard there's a cake smash tonight over here, and there's supper tomorrow after floor ball.

I'm really tired because I woke up at 7, but it's cool I guess. It's currently raining, enjoying the smell of the rain as i look out of the windows, watching the raindrops trickle down the surface of the glass. Events tonight and tomorrow night. I can't wait for the night to come!

Currently talking to Shermeen. Been so long since I talked to her. I miss her HEAPS. Talking about mistakes, what should have been done, what shouldn't. And it made me come to a realisation that the biggest regret in year 1 was........... that person.

Apparently, yes. Life is full of regrets. But I am glad that I'm going along fine, with people I love and people who loves me. Joyful for my family, whom many wish to have. I have got friends, true, solid friends whom many wish to have as well. I'm contented. It's currently 2.20am, my body clock is flipped.

Not anything inspiring. Just thoughts.

Life is about failures, betrayals, lost opportunities, feeling insecure, threatened, annoyed, sad, or most of the times, empty. A substantial get-away will be just the right trick to make my hectic life flipped. Sad to say, I haven't got cash to even enjoy the life I've always yearned for. So here's the thing.

1. I should get a vacation job
2. I should get my ass out of this educationified country
3. I should clean up my room
4. I should stop pushing people away
5. I should sleep now

Okay this totally makes no sense. Must have been the aftermath of a severe insomnia. I need some rest to get my mind straight. Goodnight bubbles!

I am so glad. Now that freedom is what I am, I am going to fully utilise my holidays. Meet the people whom I'm supposed to meet, watch the shows that I'm supposed to watch. Whooooop I feel an adrenaline rush coming my way. Been always slow, but finally got my arse up and searched my folder to find "Glee" appearing in my movies.

So out of curiosity I clicked it and BAM I'm addicted to it. Call me a nerd. But Y'knw what? The main actor is called Fin. Totally reminded me of Mr Finster. What coincidence. I'm in love with Fin. Cute voice, great physique, nice features. Girls, girls. What's new.

Hitting the sack to replenish the lost sleep for the past one week. Goodnight!