One week without workout, one week without freedom, one week without seeing my parents, one week without hanging out with friends, one week without touching my computer, one week sleeping without molly and george, one week without seeing sparky but yet one week of growth in faith and strength.

No doubt it was a struggle but everyone there were in it together. And I've learnt a lot. Thank you, for those who've put in the effort to make this possible. #graduatestheology2012

I've always have had this problem of feeling never good enough. In the way I look, the things I do and everything else. I mean I understand that it is normal to feel inadequate sometimes but I feel it all the time. I don't really like showing it out because I don't like to be seen as unconfident but then again sometimes it overwhelms my thoughts, and I'll keep thinking: when will I ever be good enough for someone?

They say self acceptance is the stepping stone to other people accepting you but I'm always questioning myself the reason for others to accept me if I can't do so myself. And I realised, that may probably be the reason why I can't accept to esteem anyone else as much as myself - because I don't esteem myself a lot to begin with.

Spent my day rollin' in beds with Julia. And exchanging awkward smiles with her oh-so-cute younger brother. My poor julia's sick, 'd'awmannn. Left her place in the evening to meet Chef Ng for dinner. He drove, again! This encourage the lazy atoms to surface and I was at my laziest.

Had dinner at Tampines's Nihon Mura, I tried to settle the bill just 'cause he treated me to 18chefs on monday but he refused to let me. Nerve-wrecking. Anyway we went to some chinese dessert stall to get some dessert. Poor boy's sick so I made him eat some almond paste (which he didn't like but finished) whilst I ate some (exotic) egg ginger pudding? Idk it tasted weird at first but it sorta grows on you.

We headed home after that.

The day was pre interesting because we talked about horoscopes and started to research and read up on them, y'knw like the elements and such but I guess I'm still not to believing them. Ah, great day though.

So I had dinner with Shao Hong. Never expected myself to get to know this boy through me being int he kitchen and him being the service staff. Yes, we met at Top Table. I'm glad though, he's a really nice guy. That's about it. I'm stoked for tuesday:-)

I cannot believe that I've known this beautiful girl for 5 years now. We've been through quite a lot in this course of 5 years. And I'm glad both of us are still in touch, as good friends. Times with you never seemed enough. But nonetheless I'm thankful for our friendship. I love you, Juls.

So basically I spent my saturday night pigging out with breakfast club because they crashed my crib for the night. We played citadels and i sorta just fell asleep without knowing. And um apart from that I've been pretty alright. But I'm really tired. And I just woke up. And its 5.15pm. Urgh

I miss mar'12 the most. I don't know why, I just do.

Here's to done and over with hell week. May exams and tests be good. Xoxo, Juls :-)

Once upon a time, there was this get-back-with-me period. People continue leaving. I was afraid. "Don't go" I whispered in my head. No one could hear but me. Every night, I lay in bed, thinking about how different things could have been if I were someone else. Was I not good enough? Will I ever be good enough? These questions killed me a thousand times in my head.

Slowly, I build up emotional walls against people whom I know would hurt me. And I gradually shun people whom I thought would leave. I lost friends, more people left. I felt alone, and very lonely. But what I was oblivious to was the people who stayed by me during these times. And now I see and know, who's good for me and who's not.

Mommy said it was a phase everyone had to go through. I'm glad mine was short, and I was blessed with people who actually cared. Thank you for staying in my life, my true friends. I will be ever grateful to you and I'll always love you. No matter what may come or what may be, you'll always be my friends.

Well hello. My fellow classmates are (mostly) staying up for bitch MICE project. I'm done, mostly, pretty much. But hey I've had my tough nights too! Really hope all of them pulls through before the dateline gets to them.

Thing's been pretty good on my part. Projects down and over with, done with my CVs for my SIP companies and all I need to do now is to study for exams. On a happier note, I am only having one paper, and it's on a monday! So say hello to three weeks of holiday instead of two!

The view on my blog is increasing, I wonder why. And who may you be, reading this boring things I have to say?

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HA HA HA HA HA ok I'm sorry if your eardrums burst but I just couldn't help it amidst the stress from projects and assignments and work and never-ending whatnots. Anyway EMBRACE DECEMBER! Kevin is coming back from America whoop whoop and I sang this song because Kevin and I were supposed to do a duet on this song before he left but he was never made realise. Okay anyway I gotta get back to my project. I hope this entertained you. Stop laughing now. Goodbye!

I can feel you starring at me from the side of my eyes. And she thinks you're fond of me. Are you, really? Because I don't even know. You're really charming in your own way and I totally understand why girls fall head over heels over you. But can you stop doing that to me, don't look at me that way if you don't mean it. What a charmer you are.