"I’m glad you like the shirt&pullover I got for you. I will continue to love you and dote on you, thank you for putting up with my nonsense. I want you to know that when I’m in love with you, it feels like everyone don’t really exist anymore. Although I’m talking to other guy friends, they don’t mean anything to me, unlike you. You mean the world to me. You make me feel so in love. Do you remember the very first time we held hands? Thinking about it still send shivers down my spine because it feels very much like my first. Everything I did with you, it felt like I’ve never done them before. It feels very much like you’re my first boyfriend and I have no idea why. You’re always on my mind.

Even when I’m mad at you, I want you beside me. When I’m sad over you, I want to cry on your shoulders. When I’m happy, I want you to share my joy. When I’m disappointed, I don’t want anyone else but you to be the reason. I want you to be in every phase of my life - When I graduate from poly, whether or not I become an air stewardess/enter a university, when I get my first full-time job, when I’m faced with my loved one’s death…. And the list goes on. 

I see you in every scene of my life, and that’s how much you mean to me. That is also probably the reason to why I’m pinning such high hopes. I really want the best for you; for us. I hope you understand, and I’m really sorry for causing so much hurt to you. I’m probably the person who have hurt you the most so far in such a short period of time. I will work on my temper and expectations. I miss you already, but you’re fast asleep. Once again, I’m going to pray for your salvation, safety and of course in every aspect that we will hurdle all obstacles and be together till the very end, even in heaven. I love you so much, please don’t ever leave me (tearing up already I’m such a baby) <3 <3 <3

Oh baby what have you done to me, you made me head over heels over you. Thank you so much for loving me, and more importantly: teaching me how to love someone unconditionally."

Please PLEASE Julia, you know you've never felt so strongly for anybody before. Don't let this guy go. Read this, if you've let him go, you're the stupidest human alive. He loves you and you know that you can count on him to love and dote on you forever. Don't be a fool to give up when things get tough.